1st emo during internship

I really cannot control my emotion already,

Lets FUCK all the things out.

1st thing, i wanna fuck the people who thing the company under himself,

show those fucking attitude at the front of the others people,

u think u r the boss? o0o, u r just a rm300 worker in a month.

pls la, we are not ur employees, ok.

but maybe just i cant accept ur attitude of doing thing,

just imagine ur imotion is over during discussion.

2nd thing, it's mother fucker i m spending all my time to do the physical works from the starting of 3rd weeks  during internship in your company, what the others do?

but today they getting praise of being hardworking in the work. 

OK, fine, i know i always do the background work that people hardly to c those things and those effort i had paid, i lose for those people just pretending so hardworking at the front of the clerk and the lady boss that look like fully spending all the time in the work after the company implemented the marking system to our internship people.

This is not yet the real working environment, try to imagine next time in the real working environment,

i have no face to c that, also not dare to imagine that.

This also nvm, just think that i not paying effort enuf for the company, 

or i had bring the troubles to the company,

or i do something that not important at all and those things that i had done wrongly.

3rd thing, u like to calculate the amount of figure in term of money with me right, ok fine.

Every-times i didn't calculate the money in the small amount with u whether in the foods or drinks, even in the  toll fees and petrol using that i had paid.

now i know u got buy thing from melacca come here, 

u said wanna lock the door of the cupboard that u put the foods tht bring from melacca, ok fine,

then i just wan to eat biscuits in the tin only, u even put the tin in the cupboard, hei the tin is share de ok, or just imagine that urs, but i just wan to eat and refill back the biscuit that i had buy, 

ta ma de the rm 4 biscuit also want to calculate with me,

u thought i wan to get the free thing from u meh,

pls la, i m not so poor, even i poor i will also not asking oney from u la, so scared for what.

maybe u not simply do that, or u not think about what the others will feel, but now my feel is u are really too stingy.

Ok fine, u want to calculate, starting from now on i will calculate any money with u even 1sen.

Thats u force me to do that, how u treat me, i will treat u back in the same way, 

especially in the term of money, i tell u 1st i m very sensitive in the term of money ya.

Please dont try to challenge my maximum degree of tolerance, 

over my level i will really fuck u up.

I know i am not a good attitude and behavior person, 

maybe i had do many things that make u all disagree with me,

i m also know that, i also force myself to change it, anything wrong regarding my attitude, my behavior, my action, i will straightly said sorry to u.

People will not be perfect all the time, but at least dont be too over, then will be ok.

At here i just wanna release my tension and pressure, don't think so much.

一点点的挣扎，一点点的不舍，一点点的不适应，多点点的人生体会与经验

忙完课业，结束考试，

终于到了新年，

期待的不是红包，不是休息，不是玩乐，赌博，放鞭炮，

而是和好久不见的家人团聚，

开心的日子过得特别快，短短的几天新年又过了。

新年期间和家人谈到毕业后的自己，

继续深造？找份安定的工作？创业？

以前的我很想创业，但现在的我，反而有点想继续深造，

haiz, 好像海上漂浮不定的船只。

新年之后到发展商那里询问，

哇,马六甲市区的店屋房屋的价格都接近百万，

天啊，想想以后的我，要怎样才能付得起！！！

过后就开始我的工作实习，

我还不是很适应突然间生活的转变，

从平时的上课，玩乐，开心就好的态度，

到认真，必须真正的达到公司的要求，

真的蛮压力和不简单。

工作时讨论期间，都发生争执，

我一定要学会控制情绪，

以免损人损己。

Friendship

Aha, now 2nd post, about friendship,

when talk about friend hor,

jiu si beh gou li liao,

this sem hor, i hv join myself into many gangs,

gou li leh, one day with gang A, one day with gang B, another day with gang C,

but mostly my time in this sem are with the china man together, gay lai gay qu,

hahaha, both suffer for the fyp together, lol...

After sharing the happy friendship, now complaining liao,

walaoeh, my hometown classmate marriage liao,

but i didn't receives any news about it,

how sad my i, until i saw someone post the wedding photo,

although we are not really join each other, but from primary to secondary school same class,

tmd, my management in friendship truly failed,

how sad my i, until now not even 1 inform me yet...zzZ

suan le ba, haiz :(

After hometown, now 2nd town complaining pula,

u know me la, i hardly to be a plp person,

if from my view, u are good and trusted, then i will trust and friend with u,

if no, then sorry,

because of that attitude, now i kena tlp liao lo,

i won't when meet people, talk people language,

when meet ghost then change to ghost language,

sorry ha, i was unable to do that,

nah, i m able to see with my eyes,

acting like so so soo friendly at ur front, look like so so soo good the friendship,

but acting ma, sure look so good la, pui.

friend, from the other people's angle viewing on me, maybe i m just like the food,
after eat, then digest and become masterpiece,
then actually i m the shit,

har, i m not saying u ok, if u have that feel, then ya, i m the shit in your friendship list, 

i just wanna be myself, thats all.

Now is study week,

all mmu people busy preparing their final,

wish all the best in the final exam,

and wish all those going to graduate de, have a bright future :)

My long long one month :(

I had closed my blog for one month, before this feel like wanna do some adjustment, but because of my laziness + busyness, so i didn't do any changes on it, aha...

This few month i m so so soo "chong dong", but it is somehow combining good and bad side. Its good from the start of this sem, i deleted all my games inside my computer, yeah... "zhang shen gu li", but it was so so bad because of something, i throw myself into the dying island.

Now, i m pretending myself is so soo free, hiding myself from preventing the stress of final exam, cuz i just wanna start my revision, walaoeh, left 3 days nia my exam arrived.

But got one happy thing to share here is i finished my fyp1, TeeHee :)
this project ar, really really make me too stress liao la,
make me pay my more than 2 weeks sleeping time as a zombie life, everyday staying in iss room la, learning point la, library la... sohai leh
But lastly, i fight for it, i win, hehehe,
Through the eight principle of universe, one out the eight rule is believe...if u believe urself, then u can success ur believe, so, i believe it, i can score an A on this subject. Not only this subject A, i want this sem score all A, wahahahhahaha.......isit crazy.....no, it is possible to do it by everyone, if u really fully concentrate on it.

Dang dang dang dang, here is the cover page and copyright of my project, wow, i m a author now, wakakaka.

Questionmark ???

In the studies, in the exam,

we are finding the answer for the question.

In the presentation and talk,

we are explaining the solution for the audiences.

In the working,

we are looking for a better life.

In the communication with people,

we are trying to understand the opponent.

In the view of love,

we are searching for the right person as lifetime partner.

But there are lots of "question-mark" in between all the question and answer.

In facing those non-living organisms,

we just need to understand them and we have the correct solution.

But in the other way, 

in dealing with people,

it is so hard for us to find the problems,
after knowing the problems,
then the solution need to be find out,
then the solution applied might be wrong again since people change in every second.
It a long ways to understand a people,
For me, its the big question-mark.

2012 这一年

2012这一年，就这样划下了句号。

一年的时间，说长不长，说短不短，

但是，发生的事情，经历的事情，都不少。

伤心的日子多过开心的日子，

烦恼的日子多过开朗的日子。

这一年，是我最少回家的一年，

但我越来越想家了，

这一年，我才真正懂得家人的重要，

家人是最重要的支柱。

这一年，友情之间变化最大，

从一年前的一起读书，一起旅行，一起玩的日子，

大家行动一致，只有少许课业上的纠纷，

现在的一年后，朋友的争执多了，联络也少了，
但圈子大了些，

可能大家都越来越忙吧，

现在的我都是一个人度过，haiz, 不进则退。

这一年，我的成绩退步了，

功课越来越多了，

温习功课的时间也少了，

不再像之前的努力奋斗。

这一年，因为某些事，我自己也改变了，

变得没那么好胜，

变得没那么执着，

变得没那么有性格，

变得忍气吞声，

变得比较勇敢了，

但对你还是一成不变。

这一年，事事不顺，

希望2013将会是风生水起的一年。

失落时，孤单时，迷失方向时

每当我压力大的时候，我会把自己封闭起来，觉得自己不够坚定，处事态度不够成熟。
         
每当我独自一个人走在路上的时候，一个人呆在家的时候，我会胡思乱想，觉得自己很失落，很孤单。

每当我面对挫折和挫败的时候，我会觉得我迷失了方向，会觉得很想要放弃。

这一些不开心的时候，听一听激励人生的歌曲，就会觉得其实坚持下去，也可以找到色彩的自己。

不要认为自己没有用，每个人都是有用的人

自己的将来，自己的路，要自己走

坚持到底，终会有成功的一天

不要辜负父母与他人对我们的期望

生气时，听一听