Reviewing current and the past; Carry forwards to the goat year 2015

最近几天闲着无聊就听了酷我听书，听着听着就喜欢上了。平时不爱读书的我，从小到大都不曾完整的读完一本故事书的我，竟然会爱上书，用听的果然大大不同，可以用来消磨时间，疏解压力，还可以回忆从前。

从小时候到现在工作的我，我还是最喜欢之前的大学生活，虽然那时的我可以说是离乡背景到另一个城市生活，少了家人的陪伴，但多了身边的朋友，好朋友，甚至还可称上兄弟。

我很庆幸，老天没让我白费了那几年的光阴。谢谢你们一路陪伴和相助，
有了你们，内向的我变得没那么害羞;
有了你们，我的世界从满希望;
有了你们，我变得有志气，有义气;
有了你们，我的笑容多了;
有了你们，我变得更努力了;
有了你们，我多了快乐;
就因为你们，我白痴过，傻逼过，疯狂过了无数次。
谢谢老天爷让我认识了你们。

以前的我讨厌书，因为你们，我渐渐喜欢上了;
中学时喜欢到图书馆是为了逃课;
大学时喜欢到图书馆是为了谈天，读书，做assignment。

以前的我懒散，因为你们，我踩尽了油门，读书时我尽量考到最好，快毕业时大家有了一样的目标，现在的我会尽力学习成长，吸收经验，我要达成我们的梦想，创造强大团队，在不久的将来制造我们的商业帝国。

现在我们都忙着，努力着，
希望不久的将来，会回到同一个桌上，建立属于我们的商业团队。🙋👌👍✌

回忆，感动，感想，感谢

那些年，那些日子，那些一点一滴，完美与不完美，已成了甜美的记忆。

天空是蓝的，回忆是清晰的。
回想了，还是会微笑。

当下的失落，现在的祝福。
封闭了自己，抛弃了自己，寻找回原来的自己。
等待着一种想要的感觉，期待少了，失望少了。
喜欢了一个人的生活，不是喜欢，而是习惯了。
现在的你变了，偶尔的回忆，偶尔的联系，习惯了。

夜晚的迷茫，感叹。
早晨的希望，阳光。
不打扰了，感谢有了当时的美好。

当初想要当的科学家，
后来的工程师，
发现了，最后还是做回了自己。

累了，模糊了，怀念着一种温暖的感觉。
偶儿的联系，彼此的关怀和抱怨，偶尔的鼓励。
时间少了，少了出现在彼此的世界，
喜欢的或只是当时的自己。

A blink of eye, CNY 2014 is reached in less than 48 hours.

Hello, time flies, thing had changed, this blog had also covered with tons of dust.

In just a blink of eyes, all the things happened around me and the changes of my life is just like sleeping on the bed and having a 8 hours dream.

那些年，我在大学的日子与过程  :)

I can't believed this cycle that can be happened so fast. 4 years of university life;

From Kedah to Melaka, everything from strange to become familiar, regardless the place or people around. From the foundation of engineering to degree honor marketing management.

From a person of not sensible to become a more matured person.

From just 3 hometown friends staying under the same roof in melacca until having big social network group of "engin gang" and "business group".

From a lazy and naughty and becoming the assignment group leader.

I was really appreciate all the things and incident happened around me, whether is positive or negative, good or bad, crazy or calm, all of them was the process of life and because of the special incident, it had becoming the traces of memory.

那些年，我们一起玩 dota 和 maplestory 的日子。

那些年，我们 group PE04 上课的日子。 

那些年，我们一起推车的日子。

那些年，我们一起温习功课的日子。

那些年，我们吃喝玩乐的日子。

那些年，我们一起旅行的日子。

那些年，我们一直把食物当模特儿“拍照的日子。

那些年，我跟你要电话号码的日子。

那些年，我喜欢你的日子。

那些年，MMU 让我留下了太多太多完美与不完美的记忆。

Actually, MMU is not so bad, without it, i will not had all those beautiful memory, without it, i will not had all the best friends, without it, i wont keep pressing F5 during the subject registration, haha, also a memory :)

真的很怀念在多媒体大学的日子

I LOVE U "MMU"

                                            

After graduate, i had back home for rest and waiting for my life turning point, after deep thinking, i had decide to choose Singapore as my 1st working place. On 19 December 2013, i had started my working life. Also in just a blink of eye, i had worked for more than one month now also i m not so satisfy with this job. I was study in marketing area but i am working in the fast food restaurant as this job doesn't matched my studies. I hope will get a better offer in the job soon :)

This year i had miss the CNY 2014 celebration wiith my family, this is the 1st time i didn't allow to celebrate Chinese new year as cny also my working day. I promised that I won't allow this happened again in the coming years. Chinese new year is the gathering for all family members, 何谓: 新年团聚. I am feeling lonely in Singapore especially in these few days as the CNY feel is getting rich around, I will treat this lesson as bad memory in the future, so now i just can think positive and be happy as life is going on and the time wont waiting for me.

At here, I am wishing all Happy Chinese New Year, 

马上成功，

马力全开，

龙马精神，

马年行大运。

Although now i m working in Singapore, i hope that i can get further study in master and if possible, i will also go for the PhD in the future. I hope all my planning able to run smoothly, i will get involvement in many types of challenges as our life is limited.

"人生有多少个十年" i hope i can make every ten years in the "WOW" effect.

Sometimes i am doing wrongly

Sometimes my communication skill is so poor,

 the way i talk doesn't means the meaning u received. 

Sometimes making joke in the wrong timing, 

i tot that is just a joke but maybe others didn't think the same too. 

Sometimes the decision i take is not purposely, 

I have my own hardship.

Sometimes I am a selfish person,

that why more people click the unlike button on me.

If change those situation oppositely,

I will not feeling good also,

and why I make the incorrect thing on others.

Result and outcome can be change if the choice i make is accurate.

The decision a person make can make the conclusion on the maturity of the person,

and i m not matured yet from the showing result.

The performance of a person can have a same feedback from the others, the result on me shows that i get a negative comment and feedback from others.

I will do my best to change my own attitude,

also think the best way in solving problem. 

1st emo during internship

I really cannot control my emotion already,

Lets FUCK all the things out.

1st thing, i wanna fuck the people who thing the company under himself,

show those fucking attitude at the front of the others people,

u think u r the boss? o0o, u r just a rm300 worker in a month.

pls la, we are not ur employees, ok.

but maybe just i cant accept ur attitude of doing thing,

just imagine ur imotion is over during discussion.

2nd thing, it's mother fucker i m spending all my time to do the physical works from the starting of 3rd weeks  during internship in your company, what the others do?

but today they getting praise of being hardworking in the work. 

OK, fine, i know i always do the background work that people hardly to c those things and those effort i had paid, i lose for those people just pretending so hardworking at the front of the clerk and the lady boss that look like fully spending all the time in the work after the company implemented the marking system to our internship people.

This is not yet the real working environment, try to imagine next time in the real working environment,

i have no face to c that, also not dare to imagine that.

This also nvm, just think that i not paying effort enuf for the company, 

or i had bring the troubles to the company,

or i do something that not important at all and those things that i had done wrongly.

3rd thing, u like to calculate the amount of figure in term of money with me right, ok fine.

Every-times i didn't calculate the money in the small amount with u whether in the foods or drinks, even in the  toll fees and petrol using that i had paid.

now i know u got buy thing from melacca come here, 

u said wanna lock the door of the cupboard that u put the foods tht bring from melacca, ok fine,

then i just wan to eat biscuits in the tin only, u even put the tin in the cupboard, hei the tin is share de ok, or just imagine that urs, but i just wan to eat and refill back the biscuit that i had buy, 

ta ma de the rm 4 biscuit also want to calculate with me,

u thought i wan to get the free thing from u meh,

pls la, i m not so poor, even i poor i will also not asking oney from u la, so scared for what.

maybe u not simply do that, or u not think about what the others will feel, but now my feel is u are really too stingy.

Ok fine, u want to calculate, starting from now on i will calculate any money with u even 1sen.

Thats u force me to do that, how u treat me, i will treat u back in the same way, 

especially in the term of money, i tell u 1st i m very sensitive in the term of money ya.

Please dont try to challenge my maximum degree of tolerance, 

over my level i will really fuck u up.

I know i am not a good attitude and behavior person, 

maybe i had do many things that make u all disagree with me,

i m also know that, i also force myself to change it, anything wrong regarding my attitude, my behavior, my action, i will straightly said sorry to u.

People will not be perfect all the time, but at least dont be too over, then will be ok.

At here i just wanna release my tension and pressure, don't think so much.

一点点的挣扎，一点点的不舍，一点点的不适应，多点点的人生体会与经验

忙完课业，结束考试，

终于到了新年，

期待的不是红包，不是休息，不是玩乐，赌博，放鞭炮，

而是和好久不见的家人团聚，

开心的日子过得特别快，短短的几天新年又过了。

新年期间和家人谈到毕业后的自己，

继续深造？找份安定的工作？创业？

以前的我很想创业，但现在的我，反而有点想继续深造，

haiz, 好像海上漂浮不定的船只。

新年之后到发展商那里询问，

哇,马六甲市区的店屋房屋的价格都接近百万，

天啊，想想以后的我，要怎样才能付得起！！！

过后就开始我的工作实习，

我还不是很适应突然间生活的转变，

从平时的上课，玩乐，开心就好的态度，

到认真，必须真正的达到公司的要求，

真的蛮压力和不简单。

工作时讨论期间，都发生争执，

我一定要学会控制情绪，

以免损人损己。

Friendship

Aha, now 2nd post, about friendship,

when talk about friend hor,

jiu si beh gou li liao,

this sem hor, i hv join myself into many gangs,

gou li leh, one day with gang A, one day with gang B, another day with gang C,

but mostly my time in this sem are with the china man together, gay lai gay qu,

hahaha, both suffer for the fyp together, lol...

After sharing the happy friendship, now complaining liao,

walaoeh, my hometown classmate marriage liao,

but i didn't receives any news about it,

how sad my i, until i saw someone post the wedding photo,

although we are not really join each other, but from primary to secondary school same class,

tmd, my management in friendship truly failed,

how sad my i, until now not even 1 inform me yet...zzZ

suan le ba, haiz :(

After hometown, now 2nd town complaining pula,

u know me la, i hardly to be a plp person,

if from my view, u are good and trusted, then i will trust and friend with u,

if no, then sorry,

because of that attitude, now i kena tlp liao lo,

i won't when meet people, talk people language,

when meet ghost then change to ghost language,

sorry ha, i was unable to do that,

nah, i m able to see with my eyes,

acting like so so soo friendly at ur front, look like so so soo good the friendship,

but acting ma, sure look so good la, pui.

friend, from the other people's angle viewing on me, maybe i m just like the food,
after eat, then digest and become masterpiece,
then actually i m the shit,

har, i m not saying u ok, if u have that feel, then ya, i m the shit in your friendship list, 

i just wanna be myself, thats all.

Now is study week,

all mmu people busy preparing their final,

wish all the best in the final exam,

and wish all those going to graduate de, have a bright future :)